Broken, Mended & Made Whole

Two months after I got my driver’s license at 16 years old, I was at home one  rainy Monday  night  doing my  homework.  I  ran  out  of  paper  so  I jumped in my brand new red, Mustang convertible and headed for the store. When I got to the stop sign at the end of our street, I put on my brakes but the car slid in a 180 degree turn on the wet pavement. As I was sliding, a car going 50 miles per hour hit me head on!

Everything went black. I don’t remember anything except lights coming at me and then waking up later seated totally in the passenger’s side of my car. I thought I was dreaming. I got out of the car and  just stared at my car in the ditch trying to understand. I felt something pouring down my face and when I reached up to feel my head – it was gashed wide open! My head had actually cracked the front windshield.

Next thing I know, I’m sitting in an ambulance and the paramedic is wiping the blood off my face. I couldn’t help but think about him taking my make up off – and how I really wished he wouldn’t! That’s when they knew I was totally conscious!

He asked, “Are you hurting anywhere?”

I  said,  “Yes. It  hurts so bad!”  I pulled up my jogging pants on my  right leg to show him where the pain was excruciating and there it was: a tiny, little scratch across my knee! He simply wiped the blood off. Meanwhile, my head was gashed wide open with arteries hanging out….but all I could feel was the little scratch on my knee!

What I’ve realized is that when we’re hurt in life, we tend to focus on minor things when the real issue is left untouched.
To finish the story, I had to get stitches on the inside and outside of my head, and then they allowed my mom to take me home. I realized through this painful experience that as I began to recover, the healing process can be more painful than the initial injury. As the days went by, my stomach muscles became  so  sore  that  it became more and more difficult to get in and out of bed. The bruises on my face began to turn dark purple. And my right eye turned bloodshot after about three days.

When word got out about my wreck, all my friends wanted to come by and check on me. As each one visited, they all wanted  to  “see  the wound”  and  “talk  about  it”. And  each time I pulled the bandages back and exposed the wound, I delayed the healing process.

And  so  I’ve discovered how  this  accident parallels what we face when we encounter situations that hurt and wound us  in  life. Many times we experience something so painful at one point in our lives and it takes twenty years to recover! We often deal with  the effects of our wounds and not  the cause of  them. And  the  truth  is:  the healing process hurts .  .  .  and  it may  take  longer  than we  thought  to  totally be healed. As long as we keep talking about our pasts, exposing our wounds  to every new  set of ears, we are delaying our own recovery.

Satan works from the day you are born to bring hurts into your life. He sends messages your whole life that say you’re not valuable, you’re flawed, something  is wrong with you, you’re not good enough, you’re worthless! We’ve all been hurt at different times in our lives, some more severe than others. Some hurts are only on  the surface – not  too bad; others go deep and leave a permanent scar in our minds and affect us for years (maybe even a lifetime).

Is  there  something  from  your  past  that  wounded  you emotionally, an experience of rejection, betrayal, or abuse, and although you’ve blocked it out and moved on, you still feel that something isn’t totally right in you? I know I hid all of my pain behind one big band-aid. I just “covered it up”.  Band-aids don’t medicate or heal deep wounds,  they hide the wound and make everything look fine. I went through some  very painful  experiences of  rejection  and  I hid  every bit  of  it behind  a  giant  band-aid  of  activities,  a  big  smile,  and accomplishments — meanwhile I was bleeding on the inside.

When you’re bleeding inside – it’s eventually going to show up on the outside . . . in your behavior, your relationships,  your career, your  self-image, your overall choices. Since I felt so bad about myself inside – I had to do things on the outside to feel better (at the time, I didn’t know this was why I was doing it). You may be thinking, “I’m fine. What I went through was so long ago. I’m over it!” I thought I was too, until God began to show me little by little where I needed some major healing – deep down inside.

Things will never be right around you until they are first right in you. God will change your circumstances, but He’ll change you first. Just because we ignore something doesn’t make  it  go  away. What  happened  to  you  that  wounded your personality? Who hurt you? Who rejected you? Who belittled you? Who made you feel that you weren’t as good as someone else? Did you used to be fun or funny and now you  just go  through  the motions of  life? What memories are you still re-playing in your mind? Did you used to have dreams and goals on the inside?

With  all  that  aside, what  are  you  going  to  do with  the rest  of  your  life? Are  you  going  to  sit  back  and  allow  an experience(s) or  a person  stop  you  from doing what God put you on this Earth to do? You may be crying out, “God, what do you want me to do with my life?” And He’s saying, “Get healed.”

When  soldiers get wounded  in  the war,  they pull  them off the front lines and let them heal. They’re no good to us out there fighting all beat up. You may be trying to fight the devil with one eye shut, one arm in a sling and on crutches. You’re not gonna win! You’ve got  to get healed!  I know  I had to.

Isaiah 61:1 says, “He has sent me to heal the heartbroken . . . and comfort all who mourn.” Luke 4:18 says that Jesus came  “to set the  burdened  and  battered  free…”  In other words, Jesus came to set the captives free; Satan came to take the free captive! Satan wants to keep you trapped in something from  your  past  – what  you’ve  done  or what’s  been  done to you. Obviously, God knew Satan was out  to break our hearts and steal our dreams or he wouldn’t have sent Jesus to be the Healer of the Brokenhearted.

As I began seeking God for my own healing, I discovered that  in order to be healed, you first have to diagnose the problem. You  could be  taking  all  the wrong medicines  if you don’t know where you’re  sick. You  could be  thinking  that a new husband is going to fix the loneliness you feel in your current marriage. Or that a little cosmetic surgery will give you the confi dence you’ve  lacked your whole  life. Or that a promotion will heal your insecurities. Or that having a baby will bring  joy back  into  your  life. Nothing on  the outside is going to change the way you feel on the inside.

It  wasn’t  until  I  began  seeking  God  that  I  discovered my true problem. I used to think that I was just “shy” and that was my excuse for not going to certain events or being around certain people. Or I would think, “I’m just humble. I don’t have to be around the ‘big wigs’ to feel important.” It wasn’t humility, it wasn’t shyness, it was a fear of rejection! As God began to reveal this to me, I had to look back and see where this came from. And the Lord showed me specific times in my life where I was severely rejected and treated as having no value or 2nd best! I had to diagnose my problem! I  had  a major  fear  of  rejection. Once I diagnosed  the problem, I could treat it properly.

How do you discover  the problem? As with any illness, you have to seek out The Physician! In our case, that’s God! He is the Great Physician! This  is  something  only you can do for yourself! Have you ever been so sick that you don’t even want to get out of bed, but you know you need to go to the Doctor? You can’t send your friend, your spouse or your mom. They want to see YOU!

God wants to meet with you privately….just you and Him. You’re going  to need  to get comfortable being alone with God and having no “noise” on in the background. Shut the door,  turn  the cell phone off,  turn  the music off,  turn  the TV off, turn FaceBook off, and get alone with God. Talk to Him. Tell Him everything. Don’t hold anything back.

He wants to pour the medicine of His amazing love into your heart. It is THE CURE for every wound in your life! He loves you so much. He has always loved you. When you had that abortion, He still loved you. When you got in that wrong relationship, He still loved you. When you got out of church for a while, He still loved you. When you got mad and lost your temper, He still loved you. When you stopped talking with Him, He still loved you. When you were hurt, rejected, abused, He loved you.

How do you receive that healing when you’re alone with Him? Worshiping God for who you need Him to be brings healing. If your foot is hurting, you don’t go to the heart  specialist. You go to a Podiatrist.  If  your heart  isn’t beating right, you don’t go  to  the eye doctor. You go  to a cardiologist. Well, if your heart is broken and wounded inside, you don’t need to seek God (only) as your “fi nancial provider”. You seek God, Jehovah Rapha, the Healer of the Brokenhearted, as your healer.

There’s a story in Matthew 8 of a leper who is in need of healing. Verse 1 says, ‘Look! A leper is approaching, He kneels before him worshiping. ‘Sir,” the leper pleads, “if you want to, you can heal me.” Jesus touches the man. “I want to,” he says, “Be healed.” And instantly the leprosy disappears.

Notice 3 things:
#1. The leper wasn’t asking the Lord for a financial miracle. He sought the Lord as His Healer. He actually CRIED OUT to Him. God hears your cries every time you call out to Him. When you’re alone at night, He hears you. When you’re sitting at your desk fi ghting off depression, He hears you. When you’re driving to work in the morning holding back the tears, He hears you.
#2. He bowed down and worshiped BEFORE he got his healing. When we bow down and surrender all of our hurts to God while we’re still hurting, we are showing our faith in God to heal us. Bowing down is a true sign of total and complete dependency on God alone. It means you’re serious. It means you’re tired of being the way you are. It means you want to be healed!
#3. Jesus said, “I want to” — in other words, it is God’s will that you be healed from everything that hurts you. When you doubt God’s willingness, you’re really doubting His love for you. He wants to not only heal your heart and restore your soul, but He wants to make you whole.

What  does  being made whole mean? You can get to a place in your life where there are NO SIGNS you were ever sick before. NO SIGNS of emotional abuse! NO SIGNS of sexual abuse. NO SIGNS of physical abuse. NO SIGNS of  insecurities. NO SIGNS of depression! NO SIGNS of  rejection!

As you begin  to  look  for opportunities  to be alone with God, and lift your hands and begin praising Him for being who you need Him to be  (your Healer), He will send an earthquake from Heaven to brake the chains that have had you bound – possibly  for many years!  It  does  not matter how bound up you may be right now, start praising Jesus, the Healer of the brokenhearted, loudly right there in your bedroom,  in your bathroom,  in your kitchen,  in your car! I’m telling you from 1st hand experience –  the chains will come off! Satan has no power. He cannot stand in the midst of praise!

Don’t spend your  life  in  pain when  Jesus came  to  heal the brokenhearted, to deliver the oppressed and to set the burdened and battered free. You have a calling. You have a purpose. Don’t waste another day of your life hurting over something that happened to you back then. Cry. Let loose. Get free! God wants to use you to set others free! Let Him heal your heart, restore your soul and make you whole. The broken become masters at mending.

13 thoughts on “Broken, Mended & Made Whole

  1. joyce says:

    like always you blessed me and ministered to my need thank you for sharing your heart and being so open
    Your teaching style is amazing i am so grateful i saw this show and thank you for the notes to reread over and over
    Thank you Jesus!

  2. Gwenetta Hill says:

    Thank you so much Terri for allow yourself to be vulnerable and open so that others can be set free. I have been lokking and looking for someone that teaches on this subject because I need to be healed, whole,and restored, in which I am going to order your cd set, but once again thank you for being transparent. Love you Gwenetta Hill

  3. Diane says:

    HI TERRI; MY HUSBAND AND I WATCHED DAYSTAR THIS MORNING ON BROKEN, MENDED AND MADE WHOLE. IT WAS AT THE ABSOLUTE PERFECT TIME. WE HAVE PRAYED AND TOLD GOD THAT WE REALLY WANTED TO GET “TO KNOW”HIM, NOT JUST ABOUT HIM. WE DIDN’T REALIZE THAT GOD WOULD NEED TO TAKE CARE OF US FIRST BY BREAKING US AND MENDING US FIRST SO WE REALLY COULD KNOW HIM. OUR PROBLEMS WERE IN THE WAY. WE WROTE THINGS DOWN ON A PIECE OF PAPER THAT WE HADN’T FORGIVEN IN OUR LIFE WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND EACH OTHER AS WE LISTENED TO YOUR MESSAGE FOR THE SECOND TIME, WE TALKED ABOUT THEM AND THEN ASKED GOD AND THEN EACH OTHER FOR FORGIVENESS AND FORGAVE OTHERS FROM OUR PAST AND FORGAVE EACH OTHER. WE WANT TO WALK IN FREEDOM WITH GOD AND NOW WE ARE AT A POINT WHERE WE CAN. THANK YOU FOR THIS LIFE CHANGING MESSAGE. IT WAS THE ABSOLUTE PERFECT MORNING TO HEAR YOUR MESSAGE. THANKS FOR BEING OBEDIENT TO GOD.. LOVE YOU. MIKE AND DIANE

  4. Ronell P says:

    Hi Terri

    last night i sat down to watch a sitcom on t.v and something was said that brought a very painful time in the past back to memory, i was tormented by the emotions that i experienced during that time and i went into a “depressed” mood after that. During the course of the day i printed out some of your articles to read to home and one of them was “Broken, Mended and Made whole”. i couldn’t stop thanking God for ministering to me through your article, it was so for me at that specific time…thank you so much for a timely article and for encouraging me through your words. I so often cry out to the Lord “Lord what do you want me to do with my life?”, I know there are a lot of areas in my life that I need healing.

    Thank you so much Terri, GOD continue to bless you, your family and above all your ministry.

    GOD BLESS YOU and I LOVE YOU

    Ronell (South Africa)

  5. Connie Anna says:

    Thank You Sweetheart..IM forwarding this to my 43 Year Old Son who faces his BIGGEST Battle in Life..Its awful and he has 3 darling little Girls 5-7-9 Years..Anyway, he will have to change a few words in this article if he even takes time to read..You had a great car for 16..I had a Yellow Corvette when I was 17..Cool Girls we were haha..I see You with Your Dad on Daystar and I love You Terri..God Bless You..Connie

  6. Pat Johnson says:

    Until today I didn’t even know that you existed, but your teaching has touched me deep down in my soul – I found it hard to stop crying. You see, I met Jesus at age 12 and tried so hard to live right but became discouraged and left the church in my early twenties. I lived a life I am not proud of, but thought that when I returned to the Lord back in 1990 and sincerely began seeking Him that life would be more joyful. Yet, I have yet to experience the freedom that I know God wants me to experience – I have to some extent, but know that there is much more. I’ve read books, listened to sermons, given of my time, talents and treasure and have even begun to believe that I can be physically healed of a number of non-life threatening conditions. Though I have not experienced the full manifestation of physical healing, I still believe that I will at some point. And to that end, just today, I asked God to show me what I am doing wrong to delay the full manifestation of healing. Then I listened to your Dad on KCM today and was impressed enough to visit his website where your message caught my eye. Wow! How it hit home – I need to just get with God and allow Him to heal my damaged emotions of which there are many. I can’t thank you enough for your openness and spiritual insight and for sharing your heart. Blessings to you Terri. Pat

  7. Dawn Alexander says:

    Terri, God has guided me to you today and I am inspired by what I have seen and read so far. For the last year I have been following Joyce Meyer’s teachings and today when I watched you for the 1st time you mentioned Joyce. I knew then that I was meant to hear your words. I look forward to being blessed by the words that you channel, the hope you send to the world and the love within your heart. God Bless. XX

  8. Susan S. says:

    Hi, Terri: I just found your article, “Broken, Mended & Made Whole,” in a 2009 Adventures in Faith magazine. I thank God for your insight into recovering from the pain of inner would and how He is our Healer (Jehovah – Rapha). Your article is “on point” in saying that we often deal with the effects of our inner wounds, such as, anger and withdrawal, and not the cause of them. You also pointed out how Jesus specializes inner wound trauma. No one can see the effects of what went on within our soul and spirit except Him. I have been studying much on Emotional Abuse while taking courses in Christian Counseling. The Holy Spirit opened my eyes to what held me back in some areas of my life (abandonment, rejection, and the loss of a parent to death) , but Jesus wants me healed and I desire to be healed. Again, I thank God for the article (He made sure that I found it), because as you said I believe that God wants to use me to set others free! God Bless You!!!

  9. Amy says:

    I’ve been in a very bad relationship for almost 3 years. Verbally, emotionally, and physically. I have been praying for God to take the desire out of my heart and to help me once and for all walk away and never look back. Well, I prayed last night and I woke up this morning to find your video “featured” on youtube. Needless to say, I have been on your site for the past 2 hours now and this message along with others, spoke to me. I’ve had that knowing for a while now that God is going to take my pain and use it to help others, and this just confirmed it. Terri, there is just something about you that makes people want to listen. You know what you’re talking about and God has used you to answer the prayer I have been praying for a long time now. You have inspired me and given me so much motivation…thank you x1000000…I don’t even know what to say lol just thank you 🙂

  10. Elise Marie says:

    Terri, thank you so very much for sharing your story with the world. What you are doing is helping others, it is helping me.
    You are such an inspiration!
    Hugs,
    Elise Marie

  11. Jackie says:

    Thank you so much for your message. I was lead by God this morning and watch your DVD on Dreams. My past kept playing over and over again in my mind. I kept looking back at my life wishing I hadnt allowed certain relationships in my life or made certain unwise decisions in my past. I’ve been feeling so broken and hopeless. I just couldnt see any hope for my future. Every day was just another day with no purpose in it. Because of your message, I am feeling encouraged, I now realise the importance of spending time in the word, speaking to him and not my friends etc, he is my physician. I know now that he loves me and is hearing my prayers and answering them. Thank you so much

  12. Gloria says:

    Thank you for your teachings. I find that your teachings are very encouraging and easy to understand. I am working through rejection and anger right now. And how my past has effected me and has distorted my view on things. May God bless you and your ministry. I pray you can come to Michigan someday. I would love to see you teach in person. Not many people capture my attention and heart, but you have. Thank you. God bless you.

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